sian. stil coughing badly. sometimes cough then got blood also.hai. miserable life. no mood to do anything. life sucks bt thanks to all those who try to console me. love you guys. tired...feel like giving up..maybe i should..maybe i shouldnt...is there hope? small glimmer or hope??? maybe not...maybe i shld just leave you alone and hope that you will be happy...Il wait until ur problem is finally solved then i will stop toking to you and leave you alone...promise...il just cut off from the rest of the world. il stop myself from having feelings stop myself from having expressions..maybe just live for the sake of living and hope someday the grim reaper will just come and take me away since my life has no meaning....yup..i hope so...humans and the world are just too complicated...im really really really tired...goodbye..i want to go into eternal sleep..and never to wake up again...tats my birthday wish....
